the blog mistress

Okay, I just got home from lehpak-ing with babyloves.

BFF, Twinneh, Hakim, Zainie, Wan and Shakis.

Lehpak,

waiting for them like an asshole in front of the school, 

and we girls were getting super damn tired,

then went they reached, we went off to bubble tea to buy drink,

then off to pondok to lehpak.

we sing larh whatever shit over they,

then i headed home ferst as i need to take my lil girl.

then took the bus went home. didnt take pica with them.

so aku pakai gmbr lame larh kay.

 but without shakiz in the pica.

while waiting for the brother lupp.

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It's been so long since i last throw out all my feelings on the blog.

So damn long since i last cried,

but i don't know why when i headed home just now in the bus.

with nothing on mind, tears drop suddenly.

i wiped it away, and i was feeling damn down,

i really didn't know what i was thinking bout, i was just listening to music,

and replied text and suddenly i wasn't in the mood and my tears drop.

and when i walk home, my life was like a fish without water, 

i was seriously weak, every step i took was like a death wish going to come true.

i was seriously weak.

i guess its because i didn't eat my medicine, i stop eating my medicine like idk but it was so long ago i ate my medicine.

I guess, i wanna die early, 

i just dont want eat my medicine even when my mom reminded me, 

i just can't i just dont want to.

and 

i dont know why.

I was never like this, i would eat it even if im lazy,

but now?

and i've changed, i do my own stuffs, i don't bother about people anymore, 

i don't care anymore,

if people dont bother me i wont bother them.

i would just keep silence.

i dont know larh what's the wrong with me.